Happy You Say?

Me? Happy?


Why in the world do you care?


What is that? You only care when you have no one to talk to? When you have nothing to do? When you're alone? When you only feel like it?

Don't fucking kidding me. Do you think that I'm a fool? I'm not a dog to wait for you to notice me when your attention is on someone else.

When did you even think of me? When I already got over you?


Actually a dog is even better than me.
To wait is not the only thing I did

I tried to understand you, I became an ear when you have problems, I protected you, I didn't replace you, Even I don't like the person you're problematic with, I considered that person so you won't make any mistakes and for the betterment of your bond, even though I know you'll leave me behind after you solve your problem with that person, I did favors for you even if I know to myself that I'm worthless in your lives.

 I'm still here for you whenever you need me..


Then you dare get near me when I'm crying? What's that? So do I still need to cry just for you to care? Then you'll ask me why in the world I'm crying..

Spare me.. Do you think you have the right to ask me?

After you left me.. After you replaced me.. After giving me false hope.

You still have the guts to say that I'm happy without you..

Do you think I'll be happy to be left alone?? Will you be happy to be replaced? To receive false hope?


Wow! Deja vu~
For how many times did I get this?

One, Two, Three, Four, Five, Six, Seven, Eight, Nine, Ten, Eleven, Twelve...


Oops! Wait a second! I no longer remember the other counts.
I beg your pardon...


I'm not really a masochist. I just got used to it .. I'm just immune..


And for fuck's sake I'm not happy at all!

I'm not happy with the things happening to me.. the way you people who I treated like friends treat me.. you guys even dare forget me ..


But what can I do? Go ahead! Tell me what I should do!
Of course I have to endure it, right?


In fairness, I never expected
You remembered me because I never showed my care

Hmm.. What should I do next so you'll notice me once again?

Should I cry again? Disappear? .. Or do you want me to die? =))



Hahahaha! Don't make me laugh :))


Next time, don't dare telling me that I'm happy without you guys. 'Coz the truth is you guys are trying to flip the situation :))

Damn you guys! For how long do you think I'm enduring everything?